DasFamiliar

Where the hell do I begin? Never in my life… I ever thought I could ever feel so…. frustrated. But I am. And the kicker of the whole thing, is people yet again assume they know what is going when they obviously don’t have the damnedest clue to what the hell is going on. Surprising isn’t it?

This particular server I’ve been on and off for 9 years…yes 9 years, thinks that I was “advertising” my own server by using a nickname which happens to be the same as my server. 

It all started when … yes I was working on my server.  I had a point where I was hung on a problem on the server which I can’t seem to figure how to get around running Linux Debian 5.0 Lenny.  I tried pulling some various sources on google…which are to my luck no help.  So I suddenly remember that a friend who knows Linux very well may know the answer.  So I connect to this server, which out of respect (which I have very little left for) will leave out the name, using the name FuzzyPickle[MBP]. My network which happens to be the name FuzzyPickle IRC.  Now mind you… when I focus on one thing, in this case my question about Linux, I tend to forget other “minor” things.  Which in this particular case, is my mind is on the Linux question… and totally absent from my mind is the server’s TOS of zero tolerance of no advertising of other servers.  Never for a moment it crossed my mind it was I was in violation of the TOS. 

All of a sudden I was told by someone that my nickname was spamfiltered.  SO…. I decided to enter their popular channel to see for myself.  Sure enough it was spamfiltered.  While I thought this funny at the moment because I thought “There must be some mistake, I never advertised my server on here.”  At the same time, it never occurred to me that it was my nick causing the issue.  I just wasn’t making the connection… my mind was too focused on the Linux question. 

Apparently at this time, the person who happened to be the “owner” of the server happened to be “waken” up by people attempting to say my nick.  Which is funny… think about it.. if you’re going to sleep why the hell would you leave sound enough where stuff like that would wake you up when you need to wake up early the next morning?  It wasn’t long, until I see -r on my nick and I am suddenly changed to UnidentifiedNumbersomethinglong.  I thought what the hell?  I checked all my status windows/channels to see if there is any messages waiting for me with an explanation. None. Again, what the hell?

Frustrated, I go into their help channel to ask what is going on.  I asked them what is going on?  At first I am told no one is around that can help until the next morning. So I decided to wait until the next day to get an answer.

At this time, the person I was going to even ask the question was afk, so I disconnected for the night. The next morning I reconnected and went into #help to get some answers of the previous night’s action. At first a very helpful oper gave me the answer I was looking for right off that I was cool with. It wasn’t until two other opers who decided to tell me that one reason my nick was banned because of its “sexual reference”.  What?!  My name is based on a cartoon character of a pickle with fuzz is what I replied back. Then all of a sudden I get a reply from a third person saying that I am trying their patience and that I was “lucky” to get a de-registration of my nick without being gline.  So I kept on the conversation because of their reactions.  If they would have seen that I accepted the first person’s response and left it at that I would have dropped it.  But no, they insisted I was advertising the nickname by using it on their server. I tried to explain that using that nick didn’t cross my mind that I was in violation of their TOS.  They kept on insisting I was advertising.  So I requested the e-mail of the owner and proceeded to e-mail him.

So I send of the e-mail to the owner. I shortly get a timely response back saying that I was “lucky” that I didn’t get gline because apparently this person was woke up when people were trying to say my name. And rambled on about how their quickest resolution was to de-register my nick and forbid it so they could go back to bed without because they didn’t want to waste time to see if  I was around. … If I was around? Considering I was in #help right after it happened asking why it was taken away? Oo? They also mention that they didn’t even want to have a “jackass discussion” why name was de-registered.

Yes, you can imagine how pissed off I was at this point. So I just simply replied back “Don’t worry about glining me because I will never be back to your server.” I also claimed the owner did not care for his/her users going by their response.  It wasn’t long right after that e-mail I sent I got a response back from the same person saying that they are sorry I feel that way and if I was taking that stand that maybe its best if we both parted ways.  I never sent a reply back. 

Now to the meat of the rant.  Never in my life I have ever been treated this way. I know how friends from that same server claiming I was advertising by using that nick.  Let me get something straight.  READ MY TEXT. I never meant in any part of my nick to advertise on that server. It never crossed my mind that I was in violation of the their damned TOS. If I knew or had some sort of clue I would have quickly changed the name to something else.  Burn me at the stake for making one damn mistake. All I wanted was an answer to a freaking Linux question.

To be honest if I got glined I really wouldn’t give two shits about it.  Its just the fact that people assume they know what is going on in my mind.  Quite fucking amazing if you ask me. I want those mind reading abilities! You people don’t have a damn clue to what goes through my mind. Its quite obvious you don’t even know who I am or what I am about. Maybe instead of threating to gline the people you claim to care about and actually get to know them… maybe it would give you a clue to who you are dealing with.  But like in our day and age people don’t want to do that. They just want to play the FEMA blame game instead of figuring out the real issue or afraid that if they say something to you try to make a scene just to gain users.

I don’t need users from other servers to do what I want. I honestly don’t. People come to my servers because they want to hang out with me because they know me. Only place I do advertise because I know it won’t bother anyone is on Twitter and that where it stays. It doesn’t go anywhere else.

If you have people on that server spamming the address well sorry about your luck. I can’t help it because I don’t know whose doing it. If I knew yeah I’d say something to them. But nope people just assume they know what I am doing and begin to make accusations!

I am really just begin to get fed up with places like these because way they treat everyone like utter shit and then turn around and blame it on them. What makes them the authority of knowing what goes on my mind when I decide to connect to their server?

What has really begin to stir me big time it is becoming apparent that someone is going around saying I was advertising which I really don’t appreciate. If you think I’ve done something wrong and have a problem with it… then fine come talk to me. Don’t talk to other people. Come be man enough to come talk to me if you think I am doing something wrong and get both sides of the story before you even think you know whats going on.

I also really starting to find out who my friends really are and who are not.  Which is sad because I had several people I held in high respect just dropped literrally within ten minutes. I am not joking around anymore. I am done playing the games. I am doing dealing with people who obviously don’t give two shits about solving the problems and just blaming people. I am about done dealing with the people who claim to be my friends and turning around saying I shouldn’t been doing what I’ve been doing.

I have also learned I will not go to other places to find answers to questions of on any subject for that matter.  I will think twice before I connect to a network to make sure I won’t violate their TOS.  Its really kind of made me re-think IRC and what IRC is really its.  Really people its  a fucking piece of software on a sever in the middle of fucking no where!  Its it really worth to throw away friendships over whose got the bigger server? Apparently with some people it is. I am done with the “How big is my penis?” contests. If you don’t want spam on your network then spamfiltered every url in existance… better yet ban the internet. Do a *!*@*. 

Like I said, spamming my network was never my intention. But I will not tolerate this FEMA blame game that everyone wants to play to who fault it is. Get over it.  You’re not that bigger of a server you think you are.  You have a lot to learn how to treat your users.  And from what I see you may want to get to learning because you are not going to last.  Users will simply get tired of all the bull shit. Again its IRC people… I come to IRC to hang out with my friends not fight battles. If people want to think to start bullshit you may want to pull the head out of your asses and re-examine your thinking.

People who know me as long as I’ve been there know I don’t rock the boat unless I am really pissed off.  Like I said before I was really cool with the first operator’s response and understand it.  Its why I said “THANK YOU” when I saw “I understand what your trying to say.” They understood how frustrated I was not giving a notice or a reason why my nick was de-registered and not being told why. They understood I wasn’t there to start any fights or get roudy. But if it wasn’t for one particular operator that could not just keep their mouth close is what brought me to here.  Because they could not keep their fucking typing to themselves.  They wanted to cop an attitude saying how big and bad they were and how everything was my fault.  Then they go about how I was abusing their network.  Abusing their network?! WTF? Yeah.. What the French Toast?!  I am abusing your network?! I got fucking better things to do than abuse your network. On top of that I don’t even drop myself to that level because I am better than that. 

And yeah I could walk away and just “let it go”. No… not for nine years.  Yeah I’ll let it ago after this post is done.  But nine years and they think I am just turned “rogued” on them?  Wow. 

I don’t need an IRC server to hang around my friends. My friends know where to find me.  If they don’t there is Facebook, Twitter, IM clients, and many other forms.  Not just IRC.  Its not the only form of communication.  I’ll be honest… I’ve been eyeing jabber a lot more lately. 

The funny thing is I know two other networks I could go on with my nick FuzzyPickle[MBP] without the worry of being spamfiltered and or forbidden. Why? Because those people trust me and understand I am not going to pull stupid stunts like that. And they know right off if they have a problem they can come to me and ask me to change it. They also know when they ask me, they don’t have to worry about ten tons of shit coming from me.  They ask me to do it I do it. Thats where the nine year IRC network just didn’t think.

Maybe they need to stop and look at what the other networks doing and how they treating their users and take notes. They apparently been having their heads in the sand way too long.

Think about it… why would a user whose been on there on and off for nine years would start trouble now? Why would a user whose followed every rule that was thrown at him even when he disagreed with a few of them, then all of a sudden makes one simple mistake when all had to be done was to ask to change it.  Why is it so hard to send a /notice to someone saying “Hey your in violation of TOS, you need to change your nick or we’ll have to ban you.”   I am human, I make mistakes. I am not perfect or claim to be perfect. People start using your heads and stop assuming when something happens someone is up to no good.

But in the future, I will never return to this network.  The network is now blacklisted in my OpenDNS. I will never recommend this network to anyone. And for my friends there, I’ll be upfront with you.  I never advertised my network there, never planned to, never mean to.  If you honsetly think I was there to spam my network, then maybe you were never my friend to begin with.  If you want to talk to me about it… then fine. Come talk to me about it.  Stop making assumptions when you don’t know what happened.  Yeah logs can be used to tell any side of the story, alterted, what ever. As long as you know me, I would hope you would know I would never pull any stunts like that. No matter how angry I was.

I will continue working for my network growing it and trying to mold it into what I want. But I WILL NEVER spam it in a network.  You will only see it on Twitter/Facebook/or IM.  I think what I did was pretty damn harmless when you have another person on the same damn network getting people to twitter about how someone has done something very harmful to them when it never happened then turn around saying I did the most horrible thing.   If you think that what I did is worse than what that other person did on the same network… then you may want to re-examine your priorities because its obvious you’re mind is isn’t in the right place.

As for my friends who think less of me for writing this post. I am sorry you feel that way. But I will not stand by and be treated like shit when everyone knows I don’t pull stupid ass stunts like this. Like I said I will not play these damn games anymore and I will go some where else. I just hope other people will wake up and realize they don’t have to put up with this bullshit either.

It is also making me realize the internet is becoming more commericalized instead of socializing. Everyone wants to make money or make a name for themself instead of having a real community. About the only person I’ve seen so far that seem to have a real community is Leo Laporate. And the thing I like about his community the most is he still talks to them and its always has been civil and is civil.

But everyone else I’ve ran into is all about the money it seems. That is a shame too. I’ve met some really cool people on here and we still hang out.  But the ones who go for it for money, miss out on so much because they can’t see any further than their dollar bill.

I just wish people would stop for a minute and realize what they’re doing with this. Not everyone on here wants to make a buck or make a name for him/herself. I can safely say that isn’t me, I don’t want to make a buck or name for myself. I just want to be known as the friendly guy who everyone likes because I am just nice and laid back.  Its just like I said before, I won’t tollerate the games anymore. Especially nasty written e-mails from owners who obviously don’t know what they’re talking about or obviously could careless about their users. Especially when all they care about is going back to bed and they state that in their e-mail and how they don’t want to deal with so called Jackass discussions. As far as I am concern its just trash e-mails.  But it shows me a lot of how the owner feels about its users. They not realize at time but it does say a lot.

Looking forward, I’m planning on making my network better and changing the subject matter.  This whole thing made me realized I just don’t want to be another “IRC network.” No.  In fact the way things going there is not telling if IRC will be around in a year or so.  But I want a community that will out last it for years to come. So yeah I’ll be making some changes but it will be my network. What makes me happy though is I will never be like the network I was on for nine years with. I never will put up with such disrespect ever again. It will be about the subject I care about dearly, and hopefully if things play out the way I want them too.  Maybe it’ll make a difference in people’s lives.  All I got to say to my friends on that network, if you still consider me as my friend, don’t be afraid to come hang out with me.  Don’t ever think I’ll turn away because you hang out on a network I will not bother with anymore.  It was nice ever you guys I was mad at. I was mad at the responses I got from what happened  on this network nothing more. But as for the ones responible in this whole fiasco, I really hope you think long and hard about your network and how much you want it.  I don’t have to be a rocket scientist to see it, at the end of the day when it comes to it, when it comes down to the end, your users will decide if your network stays or goes.  I just hope its what you want, if not I just hope you realize it before its too late. I just think its a shame that a network giant think two small servers is a threat to the bigger servers.  Usually, its suppose to be the mouse who is afraid of the cat.  Not the other way around.

In closing, yes! We finally made it.  If you decide to run your own network, realize what you’re getting into.  There is good chance you’ll piss people off, make people happy, and others will pick sides without thinking, and ones who will support you into the end.  Decide how you want to run it and what you want out with it and go with it. Don’t let other people tell you otherwise whether it be words or their actions. The ones who jump against you do not realize what they could be missing out on.  Its them who lose out, not you.  I can tell you I am not going to give up on my community because of one grouchy one. I will not be run off by people who feel threatened by a small community. All I can say to those people who are in spite of me…  just one sentence.

Zu Helle mit dir.

Okay, my blog didn’t exactly go all weather.  What can I say? I just have too much on my mind lately.  Mainly frustration. I’ve been frustrated with the internet, life, work, everything.  People probably still wonder why I quit being an IRC Operator of iPocalypse. Well its not their fault I can assure you.  Actually nothing happened.  

You probably asking yourself why I would give up a position like that.  Well, I was tired.  When you have IRC Operators tell you that its a hard job, trust me… just believe them.  I got tired of being blamed for stuff out of my control from other networks. I got tired of networks competing and threatening other friends who wanted to help.  Honestly what the hell is that all about? Over some stupid program on a server in Bumsville, USA. A server!  What is the point?  Honestly?  It bothers me we have people who feel so threatened that they feel the need to tell others they must do this or else or <insert some other kind of threat>. I seen it happen on two communities. 

That isn’t the only thing that sucks about being an Operator. There are times where you have to choose.  If you have friends who act out against the server you ask yourself do you stay and ban them or do they go with them and leave?  You know, I thought I was making the right decision.  Do I still feel like I do? I don’t know. I just know I am human guys.  I fuck up. I lost friends/gained a few.  I am just tired of all the bad mouth and bad talk from everywhere.  Its not just one person or one group.  Its several people/groups. Is it anyone’s fault?   My question for you is… does it matter? Really does it matter blaming someone for something that went wrong?  

I come to the internet to make friends…  not sit here and play the Fema/Katrina “blame game”. And take shit out on others on here. 

Let me say this..

I am frustrated that I now watch people constantly do nothing but bitch and fight and argue over peddy shit.  I am tired of people being angry over nothing.  I am tired of people being upset over small stuff.  Same with real life.  Day in and day out I hear constant non stop political bitching about how one side vs. another isn’t do this or that about <insert issue>.  You know thats why I voted in in 2008.  To make a decision how I wanted this country ran.  So until 2012 I am not going to worry about it until then. Bitching about it solves nothing.  So why bitch about it? Why not work out plans about fixing the shit instead of talking about how the other side is going to screw up all the time? Just stop it all right?  Why the hell everyone thinks I am so obsessed with weather?  Its the only topic I know no one can sit there bitch and moan how “corrupt” it is. Weather doesn’t give a damn who you are. You can be rich/poor, gay/straight, white/black/red what ever. It will effect you no matter what. 

It just feels everyone is so angry and not happy anymore for what ever reason. How do you think I feel?  Do you think I am happy joy that our economy is going down the shitter faster than my last nights dinner?  Oh yeah, wahoo for our country going down hill!  Come on people.  Just because we have hard times I am not going to take it out on other people. I am still going to have fun.  I can’t control the economy, I depend on money like anyone else. My job is shaky too. I am not sure what is going to happen 6 months from now. 

So please stop feeling so petty about it. Yeah it sucks.  But look at what is good. You’re alive. You are here now breathing reading this rant.  Just be thankful for what you have.  I know people out there have it worse than I do, but I am telling you, they smile more than I do.  Why? Because they are thankful.  That alone gives me hope.  That things will get better. 

Stop being so angry at random text you see on a computer screen coming from someone’s chat program. If it bothers you then disable that feature. Don’t jump for the ban button, thats just … well dumb. Its a sure way to piss off anyone from coming to your room that’s for sure.  I know I don’t want to visit a room like that who bans every person here and there. I don’t care how immature they are. Its why they have a button called ignore. Use it. 

Work… Well lets say that I just want people to stop bitching.  Why are they?  Well just like any other work place. They feel no one is doing anything and they’re doing all the work.  I can’t begin to tell the frustrations I have there.  I catch myself a lot trying to refrain to demanding forcefully to everyone refrain making noises above 10 decibels. 

I could sit there and be miserable like anyone else there but I don’t want to. I want to have fun. I want to enjoy living for onc. I hate the idea I live in a city where everyone is on top of you and willing to run you over because you don’t meet their “speed” requirements which greatly exceed the city’s limits. Like the song “100 in a 55″… yeah Louisville is bad about that. So is Indiana. SLOW DOWN people. Your work isn’t THAT important. 

I am just so fed up with people being angry and pissy to others around them. If you are that unhappy with people around you, then maybe you need to find a new hobby such as reading or something that doesn’t involve interacting with others. Yeah, you’re going to run into people who annoy you on the net. It happens. I can write a 10 page list of people who annoy me. But why would I?  There is no point.  There is no reason. It just makes more people unhappy if I start playing the ass to remove them from the channel. 

Lighten up, be happier. Stop being so restrictive on others. If someone wants to help out more than one community, let them.  Stop being the prude you are. Stop… bend over, and pull that big ass weed that someone shoved up there because you’re becoming an ass you know? Be happy for a change. Maybe thats why you’re community isn’t doing so well. I lost a lot of friends because the community they were apart of didn’t see it right for them to be part of a community I was apart of . Since a lot of people want to fight over IRC and who has the best community, I’ve been considering throwing away irc if not shrinking down the usage and finding a new technology. Just so I could get away from the bullying of other communities.

In life, I plan to move away from here to get away from all the negative stuff around here. And for those who believe that is the same way everywhere else… then don’t bother replying to this post. I don’t care what you have to say. Its not the same because if it was, places like Greensburg, KS wouldn’t bother rebuilding after being hit by a tornado in 2007. It’s not the same. Places are different.  

People in generally need to improve their attitude toward life. Its not that bad if you don’t let it be.  I met a lot of great people on the net and in real life. I love learning about where they’re from, how they live, differences between me and them. I don’t like speeding my way through life. I want to enjoy the view, smell the flowers, enjoy every minute of it. So I’m slowing down.  

And for those who think I am going to slow.  Then just go around me and stop hassling me. I am not forcing you to stay behind me. I just have every right to be here just as much as you. Stop being prudes and lighten up. Things could be worse.  I know I make mistakes, I fuck up. I am human. Humans tend to do that. 

Just be friendly and people will show up. Be mean, and well… just ask yourself this.  How would you feel if you were treated like shit?  

I am slowing down…  slowing down the time.

I decided I am going to take my blog in a new direction. I am going to start focusing my blog more on weather, my thoughts on weather, and anything interesting I can find on weather. It’ll take time to where I want to go with this.  But it should be an interesting road.