Rants

All right I don’t know what is up with everyone tonight, but everyone needs to take their fucking attitude and fuck off. I am tired of coming into any room and being bitched at or watching people get bitched at for no fucking reason. There is no sense for it. What ever your problem is, its time to man up and stop taking it out on everyone around you. Every time someone else gets mad or upset about something, you turn around and bitch about how we’re assholes but God forbid if you have a fucking bad day. I am sorry I upset you. It was never intentionally.

I am sorry I have to deal with assholes on a daily basis and I really could go without dealing with them. I am sorry you hate the latest weather. Its not my fault, its Nature. Take it up with her. Taking your anger out on me and people around you only makes the situation worse and sure makes me not want to help you. You always wonder why I never ask for help or try everything to avoid asking help from you. Geeze, I wonder fucking why.

I am done with it to fucking here. Enough is enough and its time to put a stop to it. If you piss me off… in real life or internet…. you get a /ignore.

GOOD DAY!

Eh life is field with responsibility and accountability, at least thats what most people say. Lately I have just become so sick of these two terms being thrown around as much as they have been.  Is it one place? No, its everywhere I go.  Stores that I visit I am seeing associates being yelled at (by customers/workers), at restaraunts I see the same thing, and many other places.  What I see people then do start yelling saying “Its YOUR responsibility for…<insert issue here>”  or “You’re accountable for <insert> here.”

I guess what I am saying is the issue I am seeing mostly at is Twitter. Yes I said it, Twitter. I’ve been watching so many people just tweet about how this person is responsible, accountable or “epic fail”, etc. Its gotten to the point its sickening. Every day on twitter I am seeing more post bashing other people regardless of who they are and what they done. Is this what Twitter has become? Really?  I have a lot more better hope and ideas for it than turning it to bash whoever club.

What really disturbs me is I seeing my own friends do it. I’ve been try as respectful as I could be and not say anything, but to be honest not many have been returning the same respect. People before have tried to stop such comments and such by tweeting about it and usually responded by “If you don’t like it than unfollow me…”  or some assholish like comment. Its happen time and time again and to be quite frank I am done with it.

Most probably notice I don’t bother tweeting anymore, this is why.  I now have a private twitter account that I use, and don’t ask me for it. You probably won’t get it.  Now the ones who don’t have it yet wondering if you are part of this group, give me time. With me being busy I am at work, I haven’t gotten to everyone yet I want to let them know about my account.

Saying that, I will say this, there are some who may find out that I didn’t add them.  I am not going to make everyone happy and I am tired of making everyone happy.  I am done trying to be the super nice guy everyone knows me by because I don’t like how this world has become. I am tired of everyone’s complaining, making fun of someone else for someone’s mistake, or just the constant bickering or epic fails I’ve seen on Twitter. Trust me I’ve fought a lot with myself to try from keeping to say a big ole “Fuck You all” on Twitter. I am just done with it. There are better things in life than watching people fail. And trust me, there is a big blog post coming up about that topic alone.  If the ones who complain about every little thing stop complaining about every little thing, they could actually change their lives. I’ve been doing it, its why I’ve been quiet for so long. I’ve seen everyone misuse accountability and responsibility to the point its just nothing more than a blame game. Guess what even Congress is doing it too! :O

I saw the perfect bumper sticker with what I had in mind about our issues as a country but it was putting the blame on the wrong person.  It said “If Al Quadia wants to destroy this country they better hurry, Obama is already doing that for us.”   When I saw that my first thought wasn’t Obama… nah he’s just another politician in the game of politics.  The people to blame for the mess we’re in is ourselves. We are so worried about who other fault it is as a country whether it be Democrats/Republicans we are not even bothering to come up with solutions for the problems. We just want to blame some one else for our miseries instead of fixing the issues.

Maybe we should start looking at holding accountability and responsibility on ourselves instead of looking for some one else, because while we were blaming it each other, everything else was breaking. Send all the hateful comments you want, I really don’t care, its not going to stop me from hiding my thoughts.  If anyone is focus on fixing this country, they would come to the realization the time they spend bitching on forums or any other media outlet about how our country is broken and start writing Congress, the more stuff would get fixed.  In fact I wish people would, sure make my life better than to hear bunch of people just bitching about it in life. Anytime I see an issue pop up I that I lean on in a certain direction I e-mail my senators/representatives. I don’t bitch about on forums like I use to, it was never productive.

There are times in my life, including now, I feel that people have this strange urge or feeling to make others miserable around them. The feeling of dragging them down when they are frustrated with themselves for what ever the reasons. Right now I am feeling those effects of someone close by.

I can’t seem to do anything right around this person, nor do I even try anymore. Frankly I am tired. I just want out. I always kind of laughed off when people made fun of me for living at home instead of moving out, not because of I am being lazy.  Mainly because it has kept me financially stable so I can move out. No one ever mentioned though it came at a price, the price of personal freedom. People say you’re an adult you’re free to express how you feel, apparently, not at home. While I am gracious having a roof over my head, I never once asked to be treated as a insubordinate.

I work for 40 hours if not more a week, very lucky considering many are without employment. To be honest its part what helps me keep my sanity. People make fun of my employer but little do they know how much they helped me with my personal life. Hell, even work doesn’t realize how much they helped.  Its hard to explain why its so bad here.  The people that care for me are not bad people, not at all. But for some reason I am not treated as my age, I am treated as I am still 15.

Its very difficult to live like that. Especially when you share totally different views from one another. I found out my family with the exception of my brother is a little more predjuce than I realized. That’s been very hard to cope with. It doesn’t stop there, my family is also… not even sure there is such a word..  Nationalist? Basically predjuice against anyone who wasn’t a natural born American and not Native American. I think this has been the hardest thing to deal with.  People wonder why.  Well when you have a friend who you consider a brother from the UK and you hear rants about how every other country sucks except America, thats hard to swallow. There is nothing wrong being proud of ones country.  In fact I am proud to be American.  But I am also proud to be an American and being able to be privillage of having a British friend that I consider family considering both of our countries use to be sworn enemies.

I just don’t understand the hate nor I want to. I am sorry but I tried to be understanding but its time to put hate in the past. Everyone here (except my brother) wonders why I get upset every time we watch the news. I am just tired of hearing the damn snyde comments coming from my parents. I am tired of this idea that everyone is evil. Yeah we maybe a kick ass country, but we won’t be for long if everyone gets pissed off at us. Last thing I want to deal with the baby boomer group is them getting so angry over stupid shit that they invertingly start a nuclear war because we “pissed off the wrong crowd”.

With that being said, yes, I am looking at moving out. Where I am going to go I don’t know, I just don’t like the idea of an apartment. I hate the idea of a landlord.  I may look at a house for rent.

I just know now that I keep my opinions to myself at home. I am taking over some more stuff to make myself more independent. I am to the point I am about to surrender and let myself be boarded. I literally have stopped talking about anything my life at home anymore. Its not worth upsetting anyone over a single comment.  Even if I show the slightest if I am right on the smallest thing, or prove one of them wrong, I am instantly in trouble and get put through a guilt trip.  Its to the point now I don’t even let the guilt trip bother me.

The thing is, my best friends which they know who they are, I wish I could tell them one thing. They do not realize how much I dearly miss them and wish I could be there with them instead of here. And for those out there who is thinking “Wow that sounds gay.” I really could careless what you think.  Really, you’re going to think what you want and I am not going to stop you. Its not worth the energy trying to fight you. I’ve fought for so long I am tired. I just want to enjoy my life for once instead of taking up arms.

I just know with today’s society, there are just way too many assholes and we have become too tolerant of their behavior. Its time for us to start kicking them out when they get out of line. If you are that sour then fine, go to an island and leave the rest of us alone who would like to better our lives. Stop making us feel so damn miserable because you feel so.

Okay, my blog didn’t exactly go all weather.  What can I say? I just have too much on my mind lately.  Mainly frustration. I’ve been frustrated with the internet, life, work, everything.  People probably still wonder why I quit being an IRC Operator of iPocalypse. Well its not their fault I can assure you.  Actually nothing happened.  

You probably asking yourself why I would give up a position like that.  Well, I was tired.  When you have IRC Operators tell you that its a hard job, trust me… just believe them.  I got tired of being blamed for stuff out of my control from other networks. I got tired of networks competing and threatening other friends who wanted to help.  Honestly what the hell is that all about? Over some stupid program on a server in Bumsville, USA. A server!  What is the point?  Honestly?  It bothers me we have people who feel so threatened that they feel the need to tell others they must do this or else or <insert some other kind of threat>. I seen it happen on two communities. 

That isn’t the only thing that sucks about being an Operator. There are times where you have to choose.  If you have friends who act out against the server you ask yourself do you stay and ban them or do they go with them and leave?  You know, I thought I was making the right decision.  Do I still feel like I do? I don’t know. I just know I am human guys.  I fuck up. I lost friends/gained a few.  I am just tired of all the bad mouth and bad talk from everywhere.  Its not just one person or one group.  Its several people/groups. Is it anyone’s fault?   My question for you is… does it matter? Really does it matter blaming someone for something that went wrong?  

I come to the internet to make friends…  not sit here and play the Fema/Katrina “blame game”. And take shit out on others on here. 

Let me say this..

I am frustrated that I now watch people constantly do nothing but bitch and fight and argue over peddy shit.  I am tired of people being angry over nothing.  I am tired of people being upset over small stuff.  Same with real life.  Day in and day out I hear constant non stop political bitching about how one side vs. another isn’t do this or that about <insert issue>.  You know thats why I voted in in 2008.  To make a decision how I wanted this country ran.  So until 2012 I am not going to worry about it until then. Bitching about it solves nothing.  So why bitch about it? Why not work out plans about fixing the shit instead of talking about how the other side is going to screw up all the time? Just stop it all right?  Why the hell everyone thinks I am so obsessed with weather?  Its the only topic I know no one can sit there bitch and moan how “corrupt” it is. Weather doesn’t give a damn who you are. You can be rich/poor, gay/straight, white/black/red what ever. It will effect you no matter what. 

It just feels everyone is so angry and not happy anymore for what ever reason. How do you think I feel?  Do you think I am happy joy that our economy is going down the shitter faster than my last nights dinner?  Oh yeah, wahoo for our country going down hill!  Come on people.  Just because we have hard times I am not going to take it out on other people. I am still going to have fun.  I can’t control the economy, I depend on money like anyone else. My job is shaky too. I am not sure what is going to happen 6 months from now. 

So please stop feeling so petty about it. Yeah it sucks.  But look at what is good. You’re alive. You are here now breathing reading this rant.  Just be thankful for what you have.  I know people out there have it worse than I do, but I am telling you, they smile more than I do.  Why? Because they are thankful.  That alone gives me hope.  That things will get better. 

Stop being so angry at random text you see on a computer screen coming from someone’s chat program. If it bothers you then disable that feature. Don’t jump for the ban button, thats just … well dumb. Its a sure way to piss off anyone from coming to your room that’s for sure.  I know I don’t want to visit a room like that who bans every person here and there. I don’t care how immature they are. Its why they have a button called ignore. Use it. 

Work… Well lets say that I just want people to stop bitching.  Why are they?  Well just like any other work place. They feel no one is doing anything and they’re doing all the work.  I can’t begin to tell the frustrations I have there.  I catch myself a lot trying to refrain to demanding forcefully to everyone refrain making noises above 10 decibels. 

I could sit there and be miserable like anyone else there but I don’t want to. I want to have fun. I want to enjoy living for onc. I hate the idea I live in a city where everyone is on top of you and willing to run you over because you don’t meet their “speed” requirements which greatly exceed the city’s limits. Like the song “100 in a 55″… yeah Louisville is bad about that. So is Indiana. SLOW DOWN people. Your work isn’t THAT important. 

I am just so fed up with people being angry and pissy to others around them. If you are that unhappy with people around you, then maybe you need to find a new hobby such as reading or something that doesn’t involve interacting with others. Yeah, you’re going to run into people who annoy you on the net. It happens. I can write a 10 page list of people who annoy me. But why would I?  There is no point.  There is no reason. It just makes more people unhappy if I start playing the ass to remove them from the channel. 

Lighten up, be happier. Stop being so restrictive on others. If someone wants to help out more than one community, let them.  Stop being the prude you are. Stop… bend over, and pull that big ass weed that someone shoved up there because you’re becoming an ass you know? Be happy for a change. Maybe thats why you’re community isn’t doing so well. I lost a lot of friends because the community they were apart of didn’t see it right for them to be part of a community I was apart of . Since a lot of people want to fight over IRC and who has the best community, I’ve been considering throwing away irc if not shrinking down the usage and finding a new technology. Just so I could get away from the bullying of other communities.

In life, I plan to move away from here to get away from all the negative stuff around here. And for those who believe that is the same way everywhere else… then don’t bother replying to this post. I don’t care what you have to say. Its not the same because if it was, places like Greensburg, KS wouldn’t bother rebuilding after being hit by a tornado in 2007. It’s not the same. Places are different.  

People in generally need to improve their attitude toward life. Its not that bad if you don’t let it be.  I met a lot of great people on the net and in real life. I love learning about where they’re from, how they live, differences between me and them. I don’t like speeding my way through life. I want to enjoy the view, smell the flowers, enjoy every minute of it. So I’m slowing down.  

And for those who think I am going to slow.  Then just go around me and stop hassling me. I am not forcing you to stay behind me. I just have every right to be here just as much as you. Stop being prudes and lighten up. Things could be worse.  I know I make mistakes, I fuck up. I am human. Humans tend to do that. 

Just be friendly and people will show up. Be mean, and well… just ask yourself this.  How would you feel if you were treated like shit?  

I am slowing down…  slowing down the time.