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All right I don’t know what is up with everyone tonight, but everyone needs to take their fucking attitude and fuck off. I am tired of coming into any room and being bitched at or watching people get bitched at for no fucking reason. There is no sense for it. What ever your problem is, its time to man up and stop taking it out on everyone around you. Every time someone else gets mad or upset about something, you turn around and bitch about how we’re assholes but God forbid if you have a fucking bad day. I am sorry I upset you. It was never intentionally.

I am sorry I have to deal with assholes on a daily basis and I really could go without dealing with them. I am sorry you hate the latest weather. Its not my fault, its Nature. Take it up with her. Taking your anger out on me and people around you only makes the situation worse and sure makes me not want to help you. You always wonder why I never ask for help or try everything to avoid asking help from you. Geeze, I wonder fucking why.

I am done with it to fucking here. Enough is enough and its time to put a stop to it. If you piss me off… in real life or internet…. you get a /ignore.

GOOD DAY!

Wow people never seem to amaze me anymore. Especially when people you have on your twitter list that you thought were your friends. Well some not all of them.  It just when you put up with some of these assholish (is that even a word?) comments, it just makes you want to say to hell with it I am done.

Last night I deleted my Twitter account “DasFamiliar” because I was done reading these comments insulting <what ever subject you want here>.   It varies from day to day, sometimes its people who make a mistake, a company making products that aren’t exactly winners, you name it its been done. Now I am not for censoring anyone for how they feel or what they think or what ever, but I am for respecting others.  Most times when I would see these comments fade in on my screen, it would make me cringe reading some of messages being displayed. I just want to ask these people who or what did what do you to piss you off so damn badly? Honestly? Is that comment warranted?

Well last night it was about Apple.  Eh… I use Apple… I like their os… they came out with this so called “iPad” last night. I looked it over.. I wasn’t exactly impressed by it but more let down of a potentially cool idea that was just something re-done. So I just thought oh well I’ll just upgrade to another Macbook Pro and be on my way. It as seem people were knowing what I was thinking and then the iPad flood of hate comments started filling my Twitter program. I was like “What the F**k?”  Do people honestly have nothing better to do with their time to bash a product that hasn’t even come out yet? Do people are so pathetic that they feel that others care about what they have to say about this product?  Some of the comments I’ve seen where like iFail, iPass, another one was something on the lines about how some of the other pc competitors did a better job than Apple was.  If you really hate Apple that much then why do you bother even following them? Seriously if you don’t want it don’t bother using your money on it and move on with your life. Some people are actually fascinated about it.  I am not going to ruin their day because I was disappointed with it. Its just a freaking computer, get over it.

Here’s the thing, it not just about Apple.  Really its not. I use Windows too.. and I like Windows 7!  Yes… I have to put up with Apple fanatics too and yes they do catch shit from me  from it. It just seems like there are so many freaking assholes out there who take what I like and just really bring it down.  I really try ignoring them and be repsectful by not typing “F**k you all” in Twitter. I have had people attack what I like, what I do, where I go, my views on issues… it goes on.

Last few times I’ve watched people who been on the news because some tradgey happened whether it be a wreck/accident/disaster and again I would see comments fly on twitter about how stupid people are that caused them to be what ever tradgey they are there. I’ve also seen comments made about how companies messed up or have workers who are useless or what ever. Oh then you also have the the stupid Red VS Blue comments (I wish it was the Halo videos because those are actually funny). Its like these people have nothing better to do with their life but to sit at home and bitch about everyone else around them. I wish I could do that.  I really wish I could but you know what I actually have to MAKE a living. What a shocker! :O Yeah I can’t spend every waking moment watching things on the internet, I just can’t do it. Then some how these people seem to be able to make comments about weather bitching about that or insulting meterologist. Honestly people? Are you that stupid? COME ON… the meterologist can try to predict the weather… not control it or be right 100 percent of the time. We just don’t have the technology for it! They have some way manage to figure how to make insults on that. It just goes on and on and to be honest I am just freaking sick of it. Guess what … its not DRAMA… its BULLSHIT, nothing more or less. Its just freaking 100% GRADE A+ SLAP IT ON THE ASS GET ON WITH YOUR LIFE BULLSHIT!  I just wish these assholes would get over it, go away, move on, ship out, drive away and leave!

Wait before you say I take it too personally… ask yourself if everyone attacked everything you like, do you honestly can say to yourself that you can just sit there and take it? On top of that keep smiling as if nothing is wrong? If you can my hat off to you. 

I am just so done being polite to assholes period. I am done tollerating their behavior of bring others down. I am done caring about what is happening in their life to be this way. Do they think my life is peachy?  They’re wrong, I have issues I have to deal with but I don’t go around taking it out on others. I have more respect than that.  I am no longer going to be polite to assholes though, not anymore.  I am just basically going to treat them just as shitty as they treat me. 

And a warning to you assholes out there, guess what… you cross me… you’ll know it.  I am done tollerating your existance.  Just because your life is so miserable you feel the need to take it on me, will no longer fly.  If you don’t like it, then there is the off button you bunch of grouches.  Get off my internet, enough said.

Note to everyone else, my twitter account may come back… at least a public option.  I’ll probably wind up making it this weekend but like I said, just keep a heads up if you see me ranting off. What can I say? I am just done being tollerant.  If you like using a platform whether it pc or mac… just use what you want and move on.  If you don’t like it, then don’t buy it and leave us the ones who do want to buy it alone and knock it off with the shitty comments. You’re pathetic as is, don’t make it worse unless you like that sort of thing. Just to forewarn you though, I won’t hold back anymore. Just don’t be suprise.  So everyone… here is what I want you to do.  Just say NO to Assholes!  Assholes are bad!…mkay?

Eh life is field with responsibility and accountability, at least thats what most people say. Lately I have just become so sick of these two terms being thrown around as much as they have been.  Is it one place? No, its everywhere I go.  Stores that I visit I am seeing associates being yelled at (by customers/workers), at restaraunts I see the same thing, and many other places.  What I see people then do start yelling saying “Its YOUR responsibility for…<insert issue here>”  or “You’re accountable for <insert> here.”

I guess what I am saying is the issue I am seeing mostly at is Twitter. Yes I said it, Twitter. I’ve been watching so many people just tweet about how this person is responsible, accountable or “epic fail”, etc. Its gotten to the point its sickening. Every day on twitter I am seeing more post bashing other people regardless of who they are and what they done. Is this what Twitter has become? Really?  I have a lot more better hope and ideas for it than turning it to bash whoever club.

What really disturbs me is I seeing my own friends do it. I’ve been try as respectful as I could be and not say anything, but to be honest not many have been returning the same respect. People before have tried to stop such comments and such by tweeting about it and usually responded by “If you don’t like it than unfollow me…”  or some assholish like comment. Its happen time and time again and to be quite frank I am done with it.

Most probably notice I don’t bother tweeting anymore, this is why.  I now have a private twitter account that I use, and don’t ask me for it. You probably won’t get it.  Now the ones who don’t have it yet wondering if you are part of this group, give me time. With me being busy I am at work, I haven’t gotten to everyone yet I want to let them know about my account.

Saying that, I will say this, there are some who may find out that I didn’t add them.  I am not going to make everyone happy and I am tired of making everyone happy.  I am done trying to be the super nice guy everyone knows me by because I don’t like how this world has become. I am tired of everyone’s complaining, making fun of someone else for someone’s mistake, or just the constant bickering or epic fails I’ve seen on Twitter. Trust me I’ve fought a lot with myself to try from keeping to say a big ole “Fuck You all” on Twitter. I am just done with it. There are better things in life than watching people fail. And trust me, there is a big blog post coming up about that topic alone.  If the ones who complain about every little thing stop complaining about every little thing, they could actually change their lives. I’ve been doing it, its why I’ve been quiet for so long. I’ve seen everyone misuse accountability and responsibility to the point its just nothing more than a blame game. Guess what even Congress is doing it too! :O

I saw the perfect bumper sticker with what I had in mind about our issues as a country but it was putting the blame on the wrong person.  It said “If Al Quadia wants to destroy this country they better hurry, Obama is already doing that for us.”   When I saw that my first thought wasn’t Obama… nah he’s just another politician in the game of politics.  The people to blame for the mess we’re in is ourselves. We are so worried about who other fault it is as a country whether it be Democrats/Republicans we are not even bothering to come up with solutions for the problems. We just want to blame some one else for our miseries instead of fixing the issues.

Maybe we should start looking at holding accountability and responsibility on ourselves instead of looking for some one else, because while we were blaming it each other, everything else was breaking. Send all the hateful comments you want, I really don’t care, its not going to stop me from hiding my thoughts.  If anyone is focus on fixing this country, they would come to the realization the time they spend bitching on forums or any other media outlet about how our country is broken and start writing Congress, the more stuff would get fixed.  In fact I wish people would, sure make my life better than to hear bunch of people just bitching about it in life. Anytime I see an issue pop up I that I lean on in a certain direction I e-mail my senators/representatives. I don’t bitch about on forums like I use to, it was never productive.

Where the hell do I begin? Never in my life… I ever thought I could ever feel so…. frustrated. But I am. And the kicker of the whole thing, is people yet again assume they know what is going when they obviously don’t have the damnedest clue to what the hell is going on. Surprising isn’t it?

This particular server I’ve been on and off for 9 years…yes 9 years, thinks that I was “advertising” my own server by using a nickname which happens to be the same as my server. 

It all started when … yes I was working on my server.  I had a point where I was hung on a problem on the server which I can’t seem to figure how to get around running Linux Debian 5.0 Lenny.  I tried pulling some various sources on google…which are to my luck no help.  So I suddenly remember that a friend who knows Linux very well may know the answer.  So I connect to this server, which out of respect (which I have very little left for) will leave out the name, using the name FuzzyPickle[MBP]. My network which happens to be the name FuzzyPickle IRC.  Now mind you… when I focus on one thing, in this case my question about Linux, I tend to forget other “minor” things.  Which in this particular case, is my mind is on the Linux question… and totally absent from my mind is the server’s TOS of zero tolerance of no advertising of other servers.  Never for a moment it crossed my mind it was I was in violation of the TOS. 

All of a sudden I was told by someone that my nickname was spamfiltered.  SO…. I decided to enter their popular channel to see for myself.  Sure enough it was spamfiltered.  While I thought this funny at the moment because I thought “There must be some mistake, I never advertised my server on here.”  At the same time, it never occurred to me that it was my nick causing the issue.  I just wasn’t making the connection… my mind was too focused on the Linux question. 

Apparently at this time, the person who happened to be the “owner” of the server happened to be “waken” up by people attempting to say my nick.  Which is funny… think about it.. if you’re going to sleep why the hell would you leave sound enough where stuff like that would wake you up when you need to wake up early the next morning?  It wasn’t long, until I see -r on my nick and I am suddenly changed to UnidentifiedNumbersomethinglong.  I thought what the hell?  I checked all my status windows/channels to see if there is any messages waiting for me with an explanation. None. Again, what the hell?

Frustrated, I go into their help channel to ask what is going on.  I asked them what is going on?  At first I am told no one is around that can help until the next morning. So I decided to wait until the next day to get an answer.

At this time, the person I was going to even ask the question was afk, so I disconnected for the night. The next morning I reconnected and went into #help to get some answers of the previous night’s action. At first a very helpful oper gave me the answer I was looking for right off that I was cool with. It wasn’t until two other opers who decided to tell me that one reason my nick was banned because of its “sexual reference”.  What?!  My name is based on a cartoon character of a pickle with fuzz is what I replied back. Then all of a sudden I get a reply from a third person saying that I am trying their patience and that I was “lucky” to get a de-registration of my nick without being gline.  So I kept on the conversation because of their reactions.  If they would have seen that I accepted the first person’s response and left it at that I would have dropped it.  But no, they insisted I was advertising the nickname by using it on their server. I tried to explain that using that nick didn’t cross my mind that I was in violation of their TOS.  They kept on insisting I was advertising.  So I requested the e-mail of the owner and proceeded to e-mail him.

So I send of the e-mail to the owner. I shortly get a timely response back saying that I was “lucky” that I didn’t get gline because apparently this person was woke up when people were trying to say my name. And rambled on about how their quickest resolution was to de-register my nick and forbid it so they could go back to bed without because they didn’t want to waste time to see if  I was around. … If I was around? Considering I was in #help right after it happened asking why it was taken away? Oo? They also mention that they didn’t even want to have a “jackass discussion” why name was de-registered.

Yes, you can imagine how pissed off I was at this point. So I just simply replied back “Don’t worry about glining me because I will never be back to your server.” I also claimed the owner did not care for his/her users going by their response.  It wasn’t long right after that e-mail I sent I got a response back from the same person saying that they are sorry I feel that way and if I was taking that stand that maybe its best if we both parted ways.  I never sent a reply back. 

Now to the meat of the rant.  Never in my life I have ever been treated this way. I know how friends from that same server claiming I was advertising by using that nick.  Let me get something straight.  READ MY TEXT. I never meant in any part of my nick to advertise on that server. It never crossed my mind that I was in violation of the their damned TOS. If I knew or had some sort of clue I would have quickly changed the name to something else.  Burn me at the stake for making one damn mistake. All I wanted was an answer to a freaking Linux question.

To be honest if I got glined I really wouldn’t give two shits about it.  Its just the fact that people assume they know what is going on in my mind.  Quite fucking amazing if you ask me. I want those mind reading abilities! You people don’t have a damn clue to what goes through my mind. Its quite obvious you don’t even know who I am or what I am about. Maybe instead of threating to gline the people you claim to care about and actually get to know them… maybe it would give you a clue to who you are dealing with.  But like in our day and age people don’t want to do that. They just want to play the FEMA blame game instead of figuring out the real issue or afraid that if they say something to you try to make a scene just to gain users.

I don’t need users from other servers to do what I want. I honestly don’t. People come to my servers because they want to hang out with me because they know me. Only place I do advertise because I know it won’t bother anyone is on Twitter and that where it stays. It doesn’t go anywhere else.

If you have people on that server spamming the address well sorry about your luck. I can’t help it because I don’t know whose doing it. If I knew yeah I’d say something to them. But nope people just assume they know what I am doing and begin to make accusations!

I am really just begin to get fed up with places like these because way they treat everyone like utter shit and then turn around and blame it on them. What makes them the authority of knowing what goes on my mind when I decide to connect to their server?

What has really begin to stir me big time it is becoming apparent that someone is going around saying I was advertising which I really don’t appreciate. If you think I’ve done something wrong and have a problem with it… then fine come talk to me. Don’t talk to other people. Come be man enough to come talk to me if you think I am doing something wrong and get both sides of the story before you even think you know whats going on.

I also really starting to find out who my friends really are and who are not.  Which is sad because I had several people I held in high respect just dropped literrally within ten minutes. I am not joking around anymore. I am done playing the games. I am doing dealing with people who obviously don’t give two shits about solving the problems and just blaming people. I am about done dealing with the people who claim to be my friends and turning around saying I shouldn’t been doing what I’ve been doing.

I have also learned I will not go to other places to find answers to questions of on any subject for that matter.  I will think twice before I connect to a network to make sure I won’t violate their TOS.  Its really kind of made me re-think IRC and what IRC is really its.  Really people its  a fucking piece of software on a sever in the middle of fucking no where!  Its it really worth to throw away friendships over whose got the bigger server? Apparently with some people it is. I am done with the “How big is my penis?” contests. If you don’t want spam on your network then spamfiltered every url in existance… better yet ban the internet. Do a *!*@*. 

Like I said, spamming my network was never my intention. But I will not tolerate this FEMA blame game that everyone wants to play to who fault it is. Get over it.  You’re not that bigger of a server you think you are.  You have a lot to learn how to treat your users.  And from what I see you may want to get to learning because you are not going to last.  Users will simply get tired of all the bull shit. Again its IRC people… I come to IRC to hang out with my friends not fight battles. If people want to think to start bullshit you may want to pull the head out of your asses and re-examine your thinking.

People who know me as long as I’ve been there know I don’t rock the boat unless I am really pissed off.  Like I said before I was really cool with the first operator’s response and understand it.  Its why I said “THANK YOU” when I saw “I understand what your trying to say.” They understood how frustrated I was not giving a notice or a reason why my nick was de-registered and not being told why. They understood I wasn’t there to start any fights or get roudy. But if it wasn’t for one particular operator that could not just keep their mouth close is what brought me to here.  Because they could not keep their fucking typing to themselves.  They wanted to cop an attitude saying how big and bad they were and how everything was my fault.  Then they go about how I was abusing their network.  Abusing their network?! WTF? Yeah.. What the French Toast?!  I am abusing your network?! I got fucking better things to do than abuse your network. On top of that I don’t even drop myself to that level because I am better than that. 

And yeah I could walk away and just “let it go”. No… not for nine years.  Yeah I’ll let it ago after this post is done.  But nine years and they think I am just turned “rogued” on them?  Wow. 

I don’t need an IRC server to hang around my friends. My friends know where to find me.  If they don’t there is Facebook, Twitter, IM clients, and many other forms.  Not just IRC.  Its not the only form of communication.  I’ll be honest… I’ve been eyeing jabber a lot more lately. 

The funny thing is I know two other networks I could go on with my nick FuzzyPickle[MBP] without the worry of being spamfiltered and or forbidden. Why? Because those people trust me and understand I am not going to pull stupid stunts like that. And they know right off if they have a problem they can come to me and ask me to change it. They also know when they ask me, they don’t have to worry about ten tons of shit coming from me.  They ask me to do it I do it. Thats where the nine year IRC network just didn’t think.

Maybe they need to stop and look at what the other networks doing and how they treating their users and take notes. They apparently been having their heads in the sand way too long.

Think about it… why would a user whose been on there on and off for nine years would start trouble now? Why would a user whose followed every rule that was thrown at him even when he disagreed with a few of them, then all of a sudden makes one simple mistake when all had to be done was to ask to change it.  Why is it so hard to send a /notice to someone saying “Hey your in violation of TOS, you need to change your nick or we’ll have to ban you.”   I am human, I make mistakes. I am not perfect or claim to be perfect. People start using your heads and stop assuming when something happens someone is up to no good.

But in the future, I will never return to this network.  The network is now blacklisted in my OpenDNS. I will never recommend this network to anyone. And for my friends there, I’ll be upfront with you.  I never advertised my network there, never planned to, never mean to.  If you honsetly think I was there to spam my network, then maybe you were never my friend to begin with.  If you want to talk to me about it… then fine. Come talk to me about it.  Stop making assumptions when you don’t know what happened.  Yeah logs can be used to tell any side of the story, alterted, what ever. As long as you know me, I would hope you would know I would never pull any stunts like that. No matter how angry I was.

I will continue working for my network growing it and trying to mold it into what I want. But I WILL NEVER spam it in a network.  You will only see it on Twitter/Facebook/or IM.  I think what I did was pretty damn harmless when you have another person on the same damn network getting people to twitter about how someone has done something very harmful to them when it never happened then turn around saying I did the most horrible thing.   If you think that what I did is worse than what that other person did on the same network… then you may want to re-examine your priorities because its obvious you’re mind is isn’t in the right place.

As for my friends who think less of me for writing this post. I am sorry you feel that way. But I will not stand by and be treated like shit when everyone knows I don’t pull stupid ass stunts like this. Like I said I will not play these damn games anymore and I will go some where else. I just hope other people will wake up and realize they don’t have to put up with this bullshit either.

It is also making me realize the internet is becoming more commericalized instead of socializing. Everyone wants to make money or make a name for themself instead of having a real community. About the only person I’ve seen so far that seem to have a real community is Leo Laporate. And the thing I like about his community the most is he still talks to them and its always has been civil and is civil.

But everyone else I’ve ran into is all about the money it seems. That is a shame too. I’ve met some really cool people on here and we still hang out.  But the ones who go for it for money, miss out on so much because they can’t see any further than their dollar bill.

I just wish people would stop for a minute and realize what they’re doing with this. Not everyone on here wants to make a buck or make a name for him/herself. I can safely say that isn’t me, I don’t want to make a buck or name for myself. I just want to be known as the friendly guy who everyone likes because I am just nice and laid back.  Its just like I said before, I won’t tollerate the games anymore. Especially nasty written e-mails from owners who obviously don’t know what they’re talking about or obviously could careless about their users. Especially when all they care about is going back to bed and they state that in their e-mail and how they don’t want to deal with so called Jackass discussions. As far as I am concern its just trash e-mails.  But it shows me a lot of how the owner feels about its users. They not realize at time but it does say a lot.

Looking forward, I’m planning on making my network better and changing the subject matter.  This whole thing made me realized I just don’t want to be another “IRC network.” No.  In fact the way things going there is not telling if IRC will be around in a year or so.  But I want a community that will out last it for years to come. So yeah I’ll be making some changes but it will be my network. What makes me happy though is I will never be like the network I was on for nine years with. I never will put up with such disrespect ever again. It will be about the subject I care about dearly, and hopefully if things play out the way I want them too.  Maybe it’ll make a difference in people’s lives.  All I got to say to my friends on that network, if you still consider me as my friend, don’t be afraid to come hang out with me.  Don’t ever think I’ll turn away because you hang out on a network I will not bother with anymore.  It was nice ever you guys I was mad at. I was mad at the responses I got from what happened  on this network nothing more. But as for the ones responible in this whole fiasco, I really hope you think long and hard about your network and how much you want it.  I don’t have to be a rocket scientist to see it, at the end of the day when it comes to it, when it comes down to the end, your users will decide if your network stays or goes.  I just hope its what you want, if not I just hope you realize it before its too late. I just think its a shame that a network giant think two small servers is a threat to the bigger servers.  Usually, its suppose to be the mouse who is afraid of the cat.  Not the other way around.

In closing, yes! We finally made it.  If you decide to run your own network, realize what you’re getting into.  There is good chance you’ll piss people off, make people happy, and others will pick sides without thinking, and ones who will support you into the end.  Decide how you want to run it and what you want out with it and go with it. Don’t let other people tell you otherwise whether it be words or their actions. The ones who jump against you do not realize what they could be missing out on.  Its them who lose out, not you.  I can tell you I am not going to give up on my community because of one grouchy one. I will not be run off by people who feel threatened by a small community. All I can say to those people who are in spite of me…  just one sentence.

Zu Helle mit dir.